V

my personal feelings on V for Vendetta, that movie that most of you won't go watch....but should consider it.

This movie comes for real. As in...it brings it. And by it, I mean political agenda and an idea. But you know what...it's not anti-republican party. It's anti-government in general.
Maybe I see what I want....and maybe that's some of the beauty in great art (and some of the ugly in bad art), it can be interpretted in a variety of ways....
In the film, set in the somewhat near future of Britain, the Government has grown out of control....using its power to control the media and its people (oh wait, don't they already? just kidding, kinda) through Fear. People in the media, the right wing media, supposedly have been taking mild stabs at the movie for being anti-US government....I guess, so everyone was ready to go out and give the movie shit....but I think two things happened.
One being, it's actually a movie that doesn't inhereintly disrespect any real American values (the real ones, not the newer fake ones), but supports them....atleast the ones I like the most.
Two, it's good....but it's a little heavy for the average movie goer in my opinion.....but maybe im underestimating people....so despite being number one its first week, I imagine its gonna slip quickly....and therefore not cause that much of a splash anyways.

So is this movie that important......sorta.
Why?
I went and saw this movie with both my mother and father. I'll try not to get into too many details, but if you ask them, both my parents will claim to be strong republicans. They support Bush fully, they support the war for the most part....
But, if you start really talking to them, they never sound like Republicans to me.....or atleast they don't sound like what republicans do in the media.
They claim that Bush is good, but will in private admit that he is making some mistakes.
They claim to be conservative, but don't understand why we are still driving a car fueled with gasoline, and still don't understand why we don't have a flat tax rate.
The claim to support less government, and despise the thought of giving up liberties to the government....
My parents are christian, but support abortion....
My parents can't stand the cops, nor their neighbors that usually call them on them.
My parents listen to Houston rap music, and and support non-censorship in the right areas....
They, to me, are no longer conservatives....because that definition is changing. To me their ideas sometimes seem radical. Its like they want change....they want to feel free-er. Whatever that means....i guess it's different for everyone.

The terms liberal and conservative seem muddled to me....
conservative would seem to mean supporting everything in all those 200 plus year old documents....all that shit....that barely means anything now....liberty, freedom, equality...yadda yadda...
Government as a hand of the people in the country....that's what i want....that seems radical to me now......im rambling more than i intended....


The point is....after this movie with them/parents.....they walked out, and after my Dad (and Me (for one sentence)) talked my Mom out of thinking this one section of the movie with an incarcerated Lesbian (put in prison because she was gay) was in fact, not Hollywood propaganda....they both kinda saw the same things I did.
The Big one being, that eventually...a Government can get out of hand....and eventually they may need to get taken down, and a new one established....

I think this reminder to people is the only reason why this movie is important. It's something I've always thought of....but never felt necessary (not that I'm strong or charismatic enough to start something but..meh).....maybe you do think so already....but you probably hate George Bush for a handful of reasons, and think irrationally...just kidding...kind of.

I personally don't think the current American government is far too out of control....I just think it's not quick enough, and is too concerned with not looking bad......
there are too many ways of looking at it, and too many ways to convince people of any way of looking at it.
We will see in 2008 i suppose....if we get another president, republican or democrat, who wins by a tiny margin, and who doesn't seem to want to get us where we need to be fast enough....and seems to be carrying, with his term, all this fear....and all this misinformation.......then we will see how pissed everyone gets.......then we will see if we will get any V's. I'd love to be a part of it......
More interesting will be to see the thing that gets our very split country to align under a common goal........what's that quote about exciting times?


And honestly...i want my hybrid by next year, and i want it for 19000....at the most.




do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.....until you violate the rights of another. yeah? no? yeah......

SXSW 2006, blotch.

Ill go ahead and do a top ten list....

10. Winter Sleep - I worked as security at one of my most frequented watering holes (am I old enough to say that?), Bourbon Rocks, for one night...and that night, this weird post-rock sounding band played. It was really interesting math rock kinda thing. I got into it, and perked me up when i really wanted to sleep. im having trouble finding anything about them on the internet, as there seems to be atleast 4 other bands with that name.

9. Blood Sugar - This Funk Rock band I saw for free after shooting the band Full Stride at Fuel on Saturday. James Brown meets Bad Religion...or something. It was really great music to hear live. Just one of those bands you only want to listen to live....probably.

8. Funksway - A super group composed of all these amazing musicians...including Erykah Badu, Questlove, DJ jazzy jeff, and some amazing guitar player that I had never heard of...and a bunch of others. It was amazing to watch, and Erykah Badu exudes....idunno.....SEX. They all formed to make a record for this movie....I forget what it was called....It's a Doc about how the record industry has changed so dramatically in the past 2 years or so...I heard it was really good.

7. Meeting DJ Jazzy Jeff - It's fucking DJ Jazzy Jeff. He was really a quiet guy....But I enjoy the quiet star.....if you can call him that.....more legend I guess.

6. Riverboat Gamblers (ME studios performance) - This was so funny. 'Cause the lead singer, while being very quiet, completely rock-starred out when they went on....getting up on a piano and jumping, Climbing a giant camera lift, throwing the mic around, sliding around (back to floor) on the floor.....not to mention how much of the free booze they ended up stealing. I really like their music too. For the record, I dont really care for the Arctic Monkeys.

5. Nico Vega (ME studios performance) - idunno what it is about this group from LA. The chick that sings is pretty and passionate on stage....and sounds so....idunno....i wanna janis joplin, but i guess i should just say soulful. The guitar is pretty crunchy, and the drummer was the locksmith from Crash, which is cool. Be on the lookout, as I imagine them getting kinda popular. hopefully more populare than this poser band called "we are the fury"....cause they are definitely not the fury.

4. Municipal Waste - I needed a good circle pit/ thrash show to go to....it had been awhile. These guys have some good shit if you are into it. Plus they are pretty funny, and almost seem like characitures of themsleves/thrash metal....For some reason when I see them, I kept thinking, "I bet these guys were really into the Garbage Pale Kids....when they were kids. Good Stuff. I also got clocked in the knees and landed really hard on my arm, football injury style...but I must have landed just right....cause my elbow is the only bruise I have.

3. Meeting Maria Munounos - The chick that hosts ET on VH1...yeah that Greek Chick.....She is also the hot Nurse in fantastic four. I think her only line is "Oh, you're hot!" But anyways, she was really cool....and after her interview with ME tv, her entourage was talking to the ME people i was with, while I was excluded and being shy....but she kept looking at me for some reason...and then she stares dead at me and is like..."I feel like i know you from somewhere..." and then after a pause from everyone her publicist was like "Chris Evans much?" and she was like "YEAH!".....Chris Evans is the guy who plays the Human Torch, in Fantastic Four....so naturally I turned quite red, and thanked her for the compliment, and made mention of how only one part of my body can turn into fire.....I didn't really say that last thing. but she was hot.

2. Meeting Erykah Badu - After her performance, which did exclude "Tyrone", I was trippin' over her. And then we were hangin' backstage, trying to get interviews for ME....eventually she came our way.....And i just kinda looked at her and said "i love you." She replied, "I love you to baby...you were wonderful tonight" Not sure what that meant....Also the way she said "baby" sounded an awful lot like "Joey." Which kinda creeped me out at first. Maybe just for that night, she was angelic.

1. Working for ME - without ME, the majority of this shit would not have happened. I also worked there atleast 50 hours this week, with no pay. The guy i usually work with in editing said I was making a good impression......we will see how good it is, as I continue my quest for a job in my field.



What a great week.
It was nice to sleep and eat today...and have my eyes feel well rested instead of burning with exhuastion+arousal.

See you next year South By.

height issue

I've never given much thought to being pretty much a short guy. It never seemed to bother me growing up that much. I never wanted to play football. I got all the baseball I wanted. I could play hockey. I could play soccer. I did well enough in school.
I was pushed around quite a bit, but I seemed to be able to make friends with huge people who would have my back.
I can remember more than 5 times being shoved by taller guys, but I have never swung a punch at anyone (aside from my Daren). I guess that makes me a wimp? I always thought it made me level headed....but maybe that comes with being a person of inferior strength. I don't know.

Now im all grown up.......although still very childlike, and not very tall. But now I've just recently really started to notice the effects of not being very tall. Especially how it makes me feel on an interview or in the work place, or when i look at my bank statements (ha). I just have never taken into account how looking up at someone and trying to persuade them or tell them something important effects me, and my confidence, not to mention the volume and clarity of my voice. Not that i was ever particularly confident in the first place....I mean, Im a pretty fucking weird guy. A lot of what I say just doesn't fit into regular conversations with people....People look at me funny.....A lot.....I used to think people just didn't get it, but I'm coming to realize, I'm just way off the mark in a lot more ways than one.

When I'm sitting the effect is much less I think.
I would like to pretend to have used the scientific method and proved something here....but i dont feel like lying tonight.


I hate to take anything away from Blacks, Gays, Women, Fatties...etc., but this guy does.
The whole article just makes me feel like shit, it's pretty awesome. Words are cool.
Although the article states there are no redeeming values to being short, I found solace in the fact that Dustin Hoffman is 5'6".....He is a wonderful actor.

He played Hook for Godsakes.....


The article touches on some interesting dynamics, that ring so true. For instance...if a man short or tall doesn't take a stand or act in a given situation he is a wimp, however if a short man does take a stand there is an adverse reaction from people, and suddenly he has a a Napoleon complex.....or "Little Man Syndrome" as I've had thrown in my direction a handful of times.
Also the financial earnings of tall vs. short people, seems to be true as far as my experience goes, as well as my parents and family.

I guess we all have to deal with some shitty thing(s) about our appearance and the negative effects they have on our psyche and personalities.....


Just go ahead and call me and angry little white man.....so i can get mad about it.


can't wait to have that penis enlargement surgery....that might help.