adjust your amatood

abstinence man and the orgy of death....has been completed. I consider this a masterpiece in videonarrative masturbation. If you want to be amazed with how much effort and detail i can put into creating something vile, peverse, difficult, and covered in cum you might enjoy watching this piece of shit movie i made....i say this with a lot of pride.
But this challenge hasn't been without....a fucking anxiety attack!
my first of many to come, i imagine...
at first i just thought i was prolly sick and couldn't breath! But then i went to the doctor and checked my lungs, my heart, and my blood....and those were fine. It's actually my brain that is fucked up, and man! how surprised i was to hear this!
totally unprecedented!
oh well.
christmas:
I bought my mom and dad an electric grill. It is the nicest most adult gift i have purchased for them. I also made them mix cd's. For my sister i got an edited version of the Chingy album. As well as a mix cd. I <3 making mix cds for people who dont listen to too much music, and therefore appreciate it mas. Giving is the awesomest. The rest of christmas is kind of lame in comparison, except the family and alcohol part. oh yeah and christ.

Off to what will be the the final alcohol camp booze fest, hopefully. I hope to make a 1000 memories and then burn them with tequila.


i see you dancing, damn you look good. i wish i could dance like that. But i can't, cause i have no legs.
i see you shitting, damn you look good. i wish i could shit like that. But i can't, cause i have no butthole.

vh1 sucks

alright...so i enjoyed those 80s shows, and i have a penchant for 90s trivia, and those 70s shows were pretty cool. Even the worst dressed or best looking was fine. But of the past 6 months or so, they have really fallen into a pit of vile trash television. I really just can't stand the fucking channel anymore...it annoys the fuck out of me. But today, to top themselves off....they vote 311's cover of "love song" one of most awesomely bad songs of 2004. And to Vh1 and Blender magazine, i must say....FUCK YOU a lot. You suck, and you apparently haven't heard the fuck-ton of fucking horrible songs that have graced the radio this past year. Especially all the other fucking terrible covers that have followed since 311's.

I dont know...vh1 has lost its touch.

::flush::

But in other news....the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory teaser trailer has hit, and i have become the definition of excitement.

missing the point

Not much to say.
I've been reading a lot of internet philosphers the past few days.
http://maverickphilosopher.blogspot.com/
that guy is pretty interesting. I had been seeking out some intelligent sounding conservative writing, and actually found it!Politically, I feel sparked a bit recently...just like everyone else i guess. I remain somewhere outside of either party, and outside the terms liberal and conservative. I think. Judging myself has never been a skill of mine, only others.
It's just that, living in austin, I'm surrounded by liberal people some of which can express cohesive thoughts about their views, and I'm a sucker for eloquent speech...so envious.
But i need to balance it out....I know the other half of the country isn't as stupid as liberals would have me believe, its not possible is it? I would say their is an even percentage of stupids on both sides. (now im paraphrasing, sorry)
Getting another point of view was imperative.

But then again, why does it fucking matter.
I love God. But I loath thinking about God........
I can't stop doing it for about an hour everyday though.
I can't stop imagining how painful the last breath I take on earth will be. And then how different the next one will be.
I can't stop masturbating.
I can't stop chipping my tooth on a tuna sandwhich.

Stone'04

Evan Stone 2004: For a Hotter Country

"My Faith is all Mine, but the rest of me America...is all yours."
-E. Stone

Be INFORMED:Read up on the No-Condoms Policy

vote stone.
I am.

end of the movie

i saw pauly shore, and his new movie, live.
The movie is decent and good for more than a few good chuckles (mostly because of cameos). It physically looks like fucking shit, he really hired someone who didn't know what they were doing with an HDcam.
But to get to what I would like to talk about....how delusional Pauly Shore is about himself. Not that it really matters whether he is or not, because he has a one in a million shot of making a comeback, dont worry. But its sad how he is almost sure that he will. There is a lot of humor that he could find if he was willing to self deprecate, but he refuses, and he comes off as a sad case for a human being. You can see how distraught he is, how "tough" its been for this guy, and how defensive he is when people make fun of him, which is all i wanted to do, when, as i was leaving the theater, nearly physically bumped into him, and didn't care really.
My how he must wrap himself in his friends/other celebrities bullshit about his chances of "being somebody" again. Which...maybe this is how everyone in hollywood is...constantly sucking up to eachother, thinking that no matter how low someone is, they might be able to help me out at some point. hopefully its not to this sad extent, but its weird and creates a malaise for me. ive heard actors suck, but this was a real concrete example for me.
this whole experience made me appreciate Team America even moreso.

Personally I dont want to "be" in hollywood....i want to go to LA and work on a few films at some point, get certified in the craft, get a little know to the a few people, and then comeback to austin or maybe try new york then come back to austin....or houston....but hopefully in the next five years, austin could support a film career....that'd be nice and dreamy.

i think pauly shore wipes from the front..........but atleast he wipes sitting down.

SAW TOMORROW!

stand or sit

if you wipe your ass standing up, you obviously dont have a problem smearing shit all over the areas surrounding your asshole, if only for a brief moment while you stand. You are gross, and dont let any other "standers" tell you different. You are a freak.

take the survey.

I <3 Team America

America...FUCK YEAH.
Coming again to save the motherfuckin' day, Yeah!
America FUCK YEAH
Freedom is the only way, YEAH
Terrorists your game is through, cause now you have to answer to...
America! (fuck Yeah)
so lick my butt, and suck on my balls.
America fuck yeah
whatcha gonna do when they come for you, yeah?

its the dream that we all share, its the hope for tomorow...
mcdonalds (fuck yeah!)
walmart (fuck yeah!)
the gap (fuck yeah!)
baseball (fuck yeah!)
nfl (fuck yeah!)
rock n roll (fuck yeah!)
the internet (fuck yeah!)
slavery (fuck yeah!)
starbucks (fuck yeah!)
disney world (fuck yeah!)
porno (fuck yeah!)
valium (fuck yeah!)
reeboks (fuck yeah!)
fake tits (fuck yeah!)
sushi (fuck yeah!)
taco bell (fuck yeah!)
rodeos (fuck yeah!)
bed bath and beyond (fuck yeah!)
liberty (fuck yeah!)
white slips (fuck yeah!)
the alamo (fuck yeah!)
band aids (fuck yeah!)
las vegas (fuck yeah!)
christmas (fuck yeah!)
immigrants (fuck yeah!)
popeye (fuck yeah!)
democrats (fuck yeah!)
republicans (fuck yeah!)
sportsmanship (fuck yeah!)
books!! (fuck yeah!)

(transcribed by me)


also....i love even moreso....I <3 Huckabees. The movie was made for me (as suspected).......it even nearly has my name in the credits...
joey evans
sean graham

go to the movies.

my lungs will be so fucked up

new cake is always good.
the latest effort is (surprisingly) nearly trumpet-less, which is one of the reasons i first started to listening to them. But at this point it has gone way beyond that, and ive formulated some strong emotional bond to their sound. A lot more singing rather than speak-singing...
and A lot more synthy pop noises going on in the trumpets absense, along with maybe a bagpipe and maybe an acordian...but im not for certain...its prolly just the keyboard confusing me. But definitely a banjo.
There are always songs on every album that draw parallels with songs from other albums, but this one is missing a couple of those staples. I miss the ultra guitar led song (i guess its supposed to be "no phone" but the drums and vocals end up winning in the end)
but i miss, more so, the ultra somber sad song. The closest thing would have to be "Tougher than it is"...which is cool in an existential way, but has a pretty strong hiphop beat to it. I like how the song toward the middle just starts repeating "some people like to make life a little tougher than it is"....as the song seems to just get simpler and simpler...not that there is a huge breakdown from a really complicated tune, i guess its very subtle.

This is their most danceable/easily enjoyable album, and by far the most well produced....but not the best.
But in a world where their genre is pretty dated (or maybe it never existed), they still bring the shit...
like this...

"...and the muscular cyborg german dudes, dance with sexy french-canadians....while the overweight americans wear their patriotic jumpsuits"
"too much carbon monoxide for me to bare....where's the air??? (x5)"

they are on tour with the decemberists...a good match i feel.

i fall down go boom.

temptation

its always lurking in the darkness occasionally rubbing against me like a dog.
I was thinking today of a very tempting wish. The wish that everyone in the world that i had never heard of, nor seen or heard or heard of or even felt (whether it be on TV/radio/net etc) would just die. I was thinking that the good effects wouldn't be immediate enough, and that i may need to rework the wish a bit, by changing some semantics....maybe instead of "die" i could say "cease to exist" and that kind of opens up the interpretation for the genie, so maybe all those poor poor souls who have never been seen by thine eye, will not die per se, but just not exist, nor would they have ever existed. So they would just be gone, and no one would realize it....nor have to clean up all the dead bodies....although...that might be kind of fun. I guess i could also put in the wish, that all those souls were to be well kept in the afterlife...i guess.
Also, i was thinking i need to add a clause to include in the mass genocide, all the bad customers that come to black eyed pea. That way even when the wish is intially granted, it wouldn't be such a bad day if i had to go to work that day. After that day, im sure someone would be asking me to come work for them somewhere else, because big companies would be panicking to replace people, without thinking of the overall damage to the amount of demand in the world.
Once they realized the change in demand, I would prolly get laid off, unless i really showed them i was useful. But lets not joke, i would be out of there in a couple of weeks.
After this i would think that there would be a lot of famous art that would go on sale, i might try to cash in on that. Or maybe drive to hollywood and buy or just claim some distribution rights to a lot of old movies...or just JAWS. Then I would chill....walk the earth.
search for anything real in the world....that kinda hippie shit.

But thats never going to happen...its tempting to believe in genies. What happened to the genie genre in film? OH YEAH! KAZAAM is the worst movie ever made for profit.
fuck you shaq. i want my genie movies.
i have been called into work....that sucks

as soon as

i think im growing up, i make one of the most irresponisible moves ive ever made. sadly...drinking too much and missing work is something worth noting, if im making a list...due to my life being about as interesting as a toothpick.
Missing work. I never do that. i never miss anything that ive given a commitment to.
perhaps my commitment to alcohol is much stronger than ive assumed, and my commitment to waiting tables is....vice versa.
id be lying if i said that 40% of my family doesn't suffer from some degree of alcoholism.
i hope i get fired. i hope that i would search for a more meaningful job that i could commit to while still keeping my commitment to school. Maybe i could commit to aligning my life up for post-graduation...like so many already have. Those people with those degrees that get you somewhere....
This fool that chose this path nearly 4 years ago, doesn't feel so optimistic. But i will hold on to that sharp sliver of hope...despite how much my brain tells me to let go.
My parents are becoming those parents again. The ones that want to know my next move. The ones that bring up the future rather than the past. Ive had these before. There return is welcome. I enjoy the pressure.
My Dad said this past weekend...."everything will just work out for you. its weird how it just happens"
I dont know if i would purchase that statement, even if it were 50 percent off. But perhaps he is right. i am a whitestraightmale...all roadways should be pretty clear.
One day my dad will die. And i will have to deal with that.

...or maybe i could commit some time to God, and less to trying to break down God and reality into human-sized edible pieces.
or maybe i could commit to getting some sleep.


*if you want to watch a movie that makes you care about the characters. and then kills them off. And then turns the tables and feels like it is watching you......go see Shawn Of the Dead....one of the best small depression enducing, ridiculous comedies ive ever seen. think like...If The Green Mile had Ernest in it.

pizza hut commercial

i have the love...the love for staying up past my bedtime contemplating stylish camera shots. Im taking a break, to refresh my brain a bit before continuting til 4:30, which...this will be the 3rd night anniversary for that one.
Ofcourse, its been for different reasons each evening.
Last night i wrote a diatribe on my generation...it turned out to be atleast 2 pages not double spaced....just on how much my generation sucks at being a cool generation. And how distraction is our main shortcumming. I think towards the end somewhere I was defining where I fall into this pile, and i believe i said "the internet = weed." I thought that was great, and despite the whole thing being unmindful of the thousands or even just a few of the many layers that must be examined when judging something so large as "generation shit" (as i like to call it), atleast i could walk away with that idea. The internet is in fact stupid. ha.
::sigh::

Anybody else love to film stuff as much as me? Even if I never get to work in the motion picture industry, im getting a kick out of it now, and no matter how jaded i become about my filthy life...ill always have some cool little projects to show people.

I think I need to start calling people pedantic more.

blogger = life

invitation

seeing the light
Originally uploaded by Ginchy311.

i have seen the light.
does anyone want to go watch Jim Trainor, the avant garde animation guy's work on friday? i have only seen "the bats"
and that was awesome.
i need someone really really deep and intellectual, but with a great sense of humor. And doesn't get depressed while laughing.

come over here and do me man

im hungry....for blood.

Xsited

im really really excited to see "I <3 Huckabees"
just thought i would let everyone know.

looks like another one of those movies i should have made, but dont yet know how to express myself through stories....plus that guy that reminds me of myself is in it....and is cool.

i shaved off my sideburns, because i want to see skycaptain and the world of tomorrow.
ive revamped my "dream journal" because Rabiger told me to. Raqbiger is cool.

i think ive come to a point in my life where i want to spend time with myself, and that offends people.

no one is reading this blog anymore.....cause im not using AIM/ their profiles, any longer.
iChat forev.

food net/reciprocity

apparently ive made it to national cable television....im on the food network...my most despised network. A network dedicated to food. ew. they prolly hate me too though...
there is a shot of me at the Alamo drafthouse.....eating....i think
i dont remember when this was...and it may not really be me....but my aunt swears it is.
i hope i see it, and it is the time i saw spiderman2 and got completely wasted, and broke a glass in the last 5 minutes and bolted out the door...and then that one "guy" told me he thought it sucked...and then he dissappeared into thin air, and that asian chick was confused and walked away.
FUCK! FUCKFUCKFUCK!

oh well....i bought a really really sad Beck album...that latest one that came out like nearly 2 years ago. Ive heard it before...i guess i was just in a sad mood and felt like facilitating it.

Even if you hate movies imparticular, but like any sort of creative stuff, i suggest reading this book called "directing" by M. Rabiger

If you like Clerks....go out and pick up clerksX. best dvd package ever. i will get it myself soon. the Jersey girl dvd is also pretty cool.

Napoleon Dynamite....what can i say. i can say this....you fuckers(producers) stole my fucking word. "Delicious" is no longer fresh.....you assholes. oh and this....
"vague plot, but still very original/funny."

if you have sex with 10 people at the same time? can that be love?

id catch you all a delicious bass....in order to get that feeling back that i had not so long ago.

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

ok...weird

weirdness lurks in my life. but it has put its funny fucking face (pardon the alliteration...not!) in my bizness.
so if you want to see how small the news can make death seem ive got the link for my dead cousin.
i guess it really is that small (similar to my dick), if not smaller in the grand view. its not like it even bothered me that much, except the open casket part....when the corpse is missing both arms and is so bruised and swolen that its nearly unrecognizable....due to an emotionally drained mother making bad decisions. a corpse is a corpse.....i think i want a closed casket.....so it leaves a little mystery. so you are like "what do you think he is doing in there?" the answer will be "laughing at your stupid fucking face and enjoying myself thoroughly."
oh well.

If Ggod gives me the chance, i will make something better than garden state, and more quotable...zach braff, the new jew-tom hanks?
my two favorite entertainers in the whole nation....K. Smith and 311, are both heading out to do that creative thing they do this fall. I still cant believe Smith is making clerks two (the passion of the clerks). and i still cant believe 311 is so good.

everyones getting plans, but i refuse/reality comes quick like a knife in the back, while your standing in front of a mirror.
did i just use links....more weird.

and im back

my, what an interesting summer that was. lies, death, travel, scandal, love, and betrayal....it was chalk full of it.
we just got our cable internet working here in the new "upperclassmen" apartment in hyde park/north campus. the move in process for a couple of slightly slacking dorks is going slowly....im missing a fitted sheet, the plastic part of my shower curtain, a coffee table, and whats driving me the most crazy, a fucking desk. I cant concentrate without a desk in the room. i never realized how much i depended on a desk to calm my mind into that perfect study state....
ive already missed one class....which i hate to do.....but it was worth it, to go out and spend a shit load of money on demetrios's 21st birthday.
i hadn't drank in nearly two weeks....and quite awhile since i had dranken too much, so it was a bit more refreshing, rather than depressing...
i went and bought an Xbox.....since i needed a new dvd player.....is that a good reason?....i dont really like video games too much....i go through phases for certain games i like......like madden.

felt good walking around campus today....the last first day of the year, forever.

defining robocop shit

my thoughts seems as dark as the trailors for this new movie "SAW"
maybe not that dark. Maybe as dark as the Batman trailors...yes.

Summer is winding down. We will see how this bitch will end.
Hopefully with some better movies.....Open Water, Some Kind of Monster, something surprise me.

Harold and Kumar - are you happy asian kids? i am (A-)
The Village - I can not believe the monsters were all just gay....what a twist! (B)


how much blood would shed...to understand robocop shit?

go lance armstrong, you fucking cheater.

i went through my annual "deep ponderance" of my own existence, and everythings existence in general. Ive found that i do this about once a year in the mid summer months, hardcore....and then again sometime in the beginning of winter, softcore....
i just cant seem to get through a year without doing this to myself....
i ask myself many questions about everything, and eventually i answer them with my faith in what the bible says about things in general....although....i never picked up a bible, and rarely ever do.
its stange how it sort of just puts everything on pause in my life, and sorta eclipses everything this life on earth is.
when i climb out of it, i feel recharged....but never the same.

i got over this certain form of depression (if you want to call it that...i dont know if i want to), just in time to visit the city of Las Vegas.
there i lost 300 dollars, and felt a different....very real in a human sense....depression. but im over it.
vegas is very much an adult playground.....but just like a playground it is not without its rules, and the threat of authority...
a lot of the time i felt nervous because of this.....more so than in your typical bar.

my parents' new home is very nice. you should visit it.
school is coming already....one last time.

the empty

summer fun has kept me away. I dont feel like im having that much fun, but i suppose im staying busy, and thats good.....which i could translate as fun......good....fun.....its all the same. whats fun? who knows?
words are weird. i feel like if there is one thing that needs to evolve its our communication abilities....using these vocal and visual mediums are just not enough. I can say something...but i can only hope that you have had enough similar experiences with a word that you can understand what im talking about....ive prolly talked about this before....sorry.
i saw spidey 2. It is the best movie ive seen in a while. in agreeance with someones blurb they use in the post-opening tv-spots....it probably is the best superhero movie ever. and im happy to be alive to see it.
ive heard great things about this burgundy movie...will see soon.

....there is a documentary to be released that is an actual documentary and not so much an agenda pusher...which i find terribly annoying most of the time. A doc on Metallica. the creators are also actual documentarists (a real word?) with an extensive catalogue of films with their names on them, and not just some fanboys/meatheads with cameras.

i also saw king arthur.....i thought it was good as well....despite thinking i would hate it. its not perfect but its enjoyable. its just very very hollywood cinema, but some how very low key, which creates this "cool" vibe. i think it was a mistake to release this film in the summer.....i think its definitely a christmas kind of thang.....it could have easily made a shit load of money by replacing the void that lord of the rings will leave this coming christmas. Someone wasn't thinking.

movies are so much better than my puzzling real life.

lets go drink

i didn't drink a beer yesterday, and went to bed before 1. it was awesome.
but anyway...this new beastie boys album is pretty enjoyable. Except for the last 3 tracks, which blow, and therefore are less enjoyable.
In agreeance with Elliott...Dodgeball is hilarious. I dont think it's particularly written well, but the jokes are pretty much non-stop, so there is no time for the plot to do anything but takes us to the jokes, which makes it "perfect" in respect to what it was trying to do. I can not get enough of Ben Stiller's oddball characters like this. I think this particular one is funnier than my favorites...his characters in HeavyWeights and Happy Gilmore. Also his wife looks particularly good in this movie. Vince Vaughn doesn't bring anything to the table, playing the likable cool guy, pretty straight. But whatev, alot of other people bring there A game. it's funny.
I hear Anchorman is funnier. joy.
they've dubbed this emerging group of comedic actors the "frat pack," interesting....
Ill be taking my little cousins to see spiderman 2 this wednesday, and im sure ill be blown away. movies are cool.

Have I ever told you about how ridiculously sentimental i am? Well...i am.
As we removed the last few boxes from my old house on 1954 Heights, i carried with me 7 boxes (!) of 'keepsakes' which include several scraps of paper, movie tickets, half sucked on candy, large dead beetles (yes, more than one), and ofcourse...one of those little bitty crackers they hand out for communion at church, as well as a shit load of other shit (which prolly includes some sort of being's shit)...that means nothing to anyone but me. Fantastic.

proud new owner

so i went out and spent like 80 dollars on various media, for myself......for my birthday.....at best buy. I bought: peter pan, the orginal texas chain saw massacre, SUPER MARIO BROTHERS, as well as the new Machine head album....i forget what its called, and the new beastie boys. This is added to the newer Andrew WK album, and club dread.
However.....another that has been mysteriously added to the pile of super shit, is the movie 21 grams. I have yet to see this movie, but ive heard alot of great things. As well a scene that apparently is very similar to a scene I filmed for a student project in high school, or so daren says.
But anyway.....it was sent to me in the mail, in a purple package, and without any product plastic wrap on the dvd itself. I expected something else inside the package, but sadly there was nothing.
the weirdest thing of all is that the name of the sender is "Hunter S. Thompson"
yeah....so thats fuckin' weird. Ofcourse....this particular H.S. Thompson claims to live in cypress,tx.

so i got to thinking....why has someone sent me this dvd, for no reason at all. And why are they using the name "Hunter S. Thompson", and not just "Hunter Thompson?"
The ONLY explanation is that Hunter S. Thompson is actually my real dad....and he raped my mother and she never told anyone. And now that im 21, he feels guilty.......and because he is Hunter S. Thompson, he decided the only way to redeem himself, was to send me a movie about the most fucked up love triangle on film.
if this is true, i accept....no hard feelings.
if its someone i know, this is a really funny joke to pull on me.

Brilliant!

so should i write this person back, or drive to their house? or just blow it off, and watch the movie a couple of times.?
meh

death o the party

i wish i could sum up my birthday in one word. I wish "drunk" would work...but it wont. Also it would help cause i drank myself utterly retarded, and at the moment (2 days later or so) it's a strain to write this.
I was drunk for 24 hours, and then i decided to cap it off with a trip to 6th street, which led to the drunkest ive ever been....which happened to be in public.
i dont really remember anything after my 5th shot i think....aside from landing on my face really hard a couple of times.
apparently i pissed myself....due to more than one reason....
I woke up with several various pains all over my body....and i was missing my shirt....but was actually in my own bed....which said to me "this isn't jail, im okay"
so i survived.
i only vomited the whole day one time....and it was before we went out, of my own volition.
Other people do that kind of drinking on a normal basis....but this was all really scary to my virgin mind. But I guess...i never have/get to drink that much again....which i really don't mind.
thanks to everyone who came and watched me at my most self-destructive. and thanks to those who carried my lifeless body on the stairs, despite dropping me on either my jaw or nose or chin or head in general.....
it reminds that even after death, people still care about you, and want your dead body to be placed someplace decent.

oh and thanks for the presents, especially the PRINCE experience.

i haven't cleaned my room since turning 21....and aside from the huge mess, and the Prince "poster", are these little tiny bugs all over the place, because ive had my window open for like 3 days, and they seem to have found shelter.i must kill them.

all ive got is insane

this is last day before i turn 21. Im hoping that tomorrow people aren't finding me passed out in the bathroom of a bar downtown singing throaty versions of nancy sinatra songs or something, in my own vomit, but hey...if it happens, ill be there. The only time i really ever came close to that was after shooting a bunch of schnapps and then one delicious shot of everclear, which left me sweaty and hallucinagenic with my head on a toilet seat in my dorm's community bathroom. you remember, you were there. i cant imagine getting that drunk in public, but i suppose thats what im to do. meh
im also relapsing into some slipknot right now, so maybe ill get wasted and beat the shit out of someone? or vice versa, which would be cool too, unless i lose teeth.

but on a serious note, i guess this is the last day of true youth. although i feel like im still 14, today.

since your body supposedly replaces every cell in your body every 7 years, tomorrow will be my 4th self...we will see how much this body can put up with because i imagine the next 7 years being the most stressful. Finding your place in the world's workplace, i imagine to be quite shitty.
but anyways...can't think about shit like that....just enjoy everyday right?


everyone should go out and rent 'club dread' immediately

you are all fucked and overrated, i think im going to be sick and it's your fault.

i am movie

What Classic Movie Are You?
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paul was indiana jones - raiders
carlos was apocalypse now
and jenny was the godfather....

peter banning

katy is just getting creepier and creepier. i feel amazingly estranged here. And everyone is growing up, and my parents are about to move. weird.
i think ill be glad to be back in austin. Back to neverland, or maybe the other way around...
i miss my old life here sort of..meh. change is cool.
speaking of which...
'J.M. Barrie's Neverland' is a movie, nearly completed, which deals with the life of the author of the Peter Pan story while he was writing it. I think he's played by Johnny Depp. Should be excellent. And it's rated PG, right now, so I have high hopes.
If there is to be a rated R take on anything having to do with Neverland...i think it would have to be me doing it, but then again...it might not be right.

the humiliation i felt, after having my buns taped together...was unreal.

love

el sol

so this is going to be my summer.
I ended well, with 2 A's, a B, and one CR (credit). I continue to make pointlessly good grades, seeing as how, apparently no one in the entire media industry gives a shit about whether or not you tried hard in college, or even if you went (in some cases). But, im a good student, and have been. Any other way is too hard to swallow. weird how some people care, and some dont. What are those dont people seeing whenever they see (school) work? I see, and have always seen consequences, like my parents getting upset with me, dissapointing my dad mostly....failure, public embarassment, etc. I remember crying over bad grades in elementary....thats some really sick shit, but i guess its getting me thru college. along with all that money that shouldn't be going to waste.
So, fear=good-grades....im just a scared little bitch, or moderately "smart," or someone who just does what they are told, however you want to look at it.

after i graduate, ill be known to the whole world as "educated." ye-ha

If you watch austin music network between 11am and 12pm on tues and thurs, thats me making the music video switches for the "classics" program.
if anyone has any requests....they have a pretty decent catalog of videos, and are willing to play anything, that isn't explicit.

who wants a ranch trip in august?

pray: motivation
prey: musicology

ok..

ok, i set the font to american typewriter....is that gonna work for everyone?

Today i start my "internship" at the, soon to tank, austin music network. I'm nervous and excited....something i dont get very often. Those two feelings combined make me act really calm. It's cool.
I've had entirely too much time to think lately...i need to get back into some projects. There may very well be a water bonhomie 3 in the works. And i got a couple other ideas for shorts.
id like to just make a feature now, if anyone wants to give me money.

ill be in katy this weekend. i cant wait to play "the game"
yes...there has been a game created, with only questions about the people i know from Katy.

engineer.

slightly new look

do you like it?
or does it look weird?
I'm using an uncommon font, so most of you are prolly getting the backup...
the posts themselves are still in regular Times i think.

its amazing the things you will do in procrastination.

some racist comments

a lot of people say reverse racism can't exist...but idunno. Today i got stiffed twice by two groups of african american women who had decided to dine at the black eyed pea today. I'd heard that black people were terrible tippers, but had never experienced it until today. And wow. For atleast an hour and a half....i did nothing but concentrate on these two terribly annoying tables. ( By annoying, i mean like "this drink is too sweet"(?) "i need extra ranch" "more bread", etc.) And in that time period a made 2 dollars.....only because one of the women within the group of 8 (4 of which were annoying little kids), i guess decided she didn't want to be cheap, so she asked for a seperate bill...and secretively tippe me two.
I appreciate that woman.

I found this quote, when searching "why blacks don't tip," and found several talkboards...

"Sup losers. Ya all think that being a bitch -oops I mean a "waiter" is like, a real fucking job? Really? Let me tell ya we niggas work hard for our donakas, we aint looking to tip your pasty white ass. Aw fuck it- I will tell yall the truth because i pity you sad fucks. We dont tip so you can see how it is to be the bitch- when my big black ass waltzes into a restaurant all you white motherfuckers are my slaves. I love making you all run back and forth getting me shit- run whitemotherfucker! run! The only time i ever tip is if i get back pennys with my change- then i leave one! "

i dont know if this helps race relations.
And im pretty sure this guy was never a slave, i guess his greatgrandparents had hard feelings....or that whole segregation thing......oh ya.

so...no hard feelings black people.

upper mgmt

the semester is ending. it's going right into what ive referrred to, my whole life, really, as the "last real summer ever." Thats pretty terrifying, i guess i should make the most of it...
I will be doing the blackeyedpea thing as well as "interning" at the Austin Music Network.....if anyone watches that actually.
Hopefully it doesn't tank here in the next couple of weeks.
Thats right, im not going back to Katy...
i will stay here.
I haven't been there for more than 40 hours, in a very long time. My mom is fairly dissappointed i will not be there for mothers' day......as am i. I shook myself up a lot the other day by concentrating on the fact that my mom and dad will die in the next 20 or 30 years.....and also i was thinking about Daren's dad dying, for some reason i think that would affect me alot too. Idunno....death is weird. I haven't been affected by it seriously. Jesus is cool though, so i find comfort.

this would be really nice.
if you win that because of me....you should atleast let me have the monitor...or fcp.........or the computer. i also like to touch.

dreambabies

ive been having dreams again...prolly due to weird sleeping hours.
In one, I was trying to save people from some sort of domestic pool filled with like quicksand that was adjacent to a beachfront. But then the ground was giving away and chunks of land were falling, and there was a giant hole filled with brown fuzzy hair, that seemed to go to the earths' core. I saved two little kids from falling in but i fell. However, i quickly grabbed hold of the hair.
I looked up, and there was the face of a woman whos hair i was holding on to, who apparently had been just beneath the surface of the earth...waiting for someone to uncover her. Still hanging on to her hair, I looked down, and could see, despite there being mile long hair going down the hole, a pair of legs that also traveled the length of this hole. The women then said to me something like, "there are more to be saved, go." I then looked down, and let go of the hair. I fell a ways down, then caught myself. I repeated this action several times, until i couldn't see light.
I never got to the bottom.

i wonder what was down there.

G-mail

Today i gave a presentation on Kung Fu and Blaxploitation. After I completed it, the TA asked me why this was relevant. I had no idea what to say. It was really embarassing, my brain was fizzlefried, and it really showcased how I have no insight into the Asian American experience, and how I haven't read anything in that class, nor understand most of the concepts....she kept reformatting the question, but still nothing. I just sort of gave up and then someone else answered another question....
ive had problems with this TA before....mostly im refering to when she sent me a threatening letter after I left class during the lecture one day. Maybe she has it in for me....im a white male......
but hey, ill never have to deal with bad depictions of me on screen right? and Ill prolly make more money than her always just because im white...so i dont blame her.....or wait, thats not true....

Im prolly wrong....but in comparison to all the classes Ive taken that deal with the African American experience....Asian Americans just can't hold their jocks.
But im very glad with being done with the presentation....i sort of have nothing to do for a few days....that's difficult atleast.

....i fixed the ads at the top of the page. There is only one again....i dont know if its ever just been one......but it is now.

2 year blowout party

welcome to the 2 year anniversary of this shitty website!

we have soda to your left, and cookies to the right. the pizza will be here momentarily. The DJ is spinning top40, if youd like to make a request, go right ahead, and dance if you'd like.

oh, and may i take your coat?

"id like to thank everyone for coming out, and celebrating. Time has flown by hasn't it? I just want to thank everyone for dedicating their lives to me on an irregular basis. Thank you so much for reading my bullshit, it makes me feel so much more special than the average person. I think a lot of the goals i had in mind with this site, failed miserably. But hey! We got orange and grape soda, and they're playing my favorite song, so lets get down!"

nice to know im rated...

My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?

4/20celebration

not really, school is too consuming for pot...for me, plus i hate being high.

time gets so much faster as you get older. this is trite, i know. But damn. I can feel it about to make that jump from the semi-quick pace of college to that ultra-swift pace of real life.
I have memories from childhood, they all seem reggae paced. All the memories seem so much longer than ones i have of things that happened a couple of years ago. Like simple moments from childhood are equally represented to things like going to a particular concert or something like that. My pace now is like a decently paced beatles song....but in the future its sounds like....a rolling metal song.
I wonder if this changes once your 50 or 60, to an annoying drum roll/techno song....or if you just stop caring, and forget about them, after a lifetime of realizing how unimportant they are in many ways, except to you.
I dedicate a lot of time thinking about stupid shit like this. I think way too much about how I exist, and how delicate life is and how weird it is. I stare at things I've seen a thousand times, and think about what the fuck it really is. Or like, how people say things you hear all the time, but even so, there is still meaning there, that is almost too cliche to acknowlege as real.
Is this getting too American Beauty? or shitty? fuck it.
Idunno, I dont know if i could live 3 or 4 more 20 year periods with all these questions....i will develop new distractions.
Prolly heroin or something, but a distraction nonetheless.

I saw Artie, an old half-way-friend, whom most of you know. He is married with a child, but still going to school. I told him how, after school, I will either puss out and try to get a job at a television station/company in texas or move to LA, for a couple+ years. I dont think ive really told anyone that outright before. I think about it a lot. It would be the hardest thing ive done so far in life.
i long to entertain you.

...

one little thing....is anyone else really fascinated by the links listed on the "blogspot" ads at the top of the page? how they find keywords and topics that I discuss........its all so....

...

i bank

oh shit....im all up in da cashes at tha black eye P. Fuckin rollin in that shit.
Not really....i actually found out i have to PAY 480 dollars for my taxes because of my summer job, that did not take out social security or anything. Which was cool, but now...is very lukewarm.
But jesus.....thank god...i no longer exist in poverty for the moment...I bought a fucking 12 pack of redstripe the other day for fucks sake. Thats like a dollar a beer, which is insane....for me.
But honestly...I even have enough money to get a 4,000 mile overdue oil change!
Speaking of my car....my sister...who in november wrecked her full sized chevy truck one week after getting it on her birthday...is now "retreating" back to the SATURN. She will be getting the exact same kinda car as mine, except one year older, and with a sun roof. I dont like sun roofs, so its all good.

Hellboy = good not-so-popcorn, popcorn movie....despite me not having any popcorn.
busy week ahead....cant you all just feel your cleats hitting homeplate?

Tomorrow at 7, on campus...they are showing "JESUS CHRIST VAMPIRE HUNTER" which is a story about exactly what the title sounds like....so everyone should go with me.

a cool 60 hours & film

this weekend was cool for some reason. I was really apprehensive about it, because I was to wait tables at "tha pea" for the first time without backup. But after doing it, I think everything is going to be alright. Im not the best "salesperson," but atleast i know now that i can actually take orders and talk to people in an audible manner, consistently. Im sure it will get harder, as they give me busier and longer shifts. But im not afraid too much anymore. Saturday was a drunken day. At 8:30 in the morning, I had a meeting to taste wine for work. So i went in to work with a fuzzy wine buzz. Later i went to kevins and drank a couple of beers. Later I bought a huge bottle of cheap whiskey and drank til I vomited. It was awesome.....Coming off of my first day of waiting tables victorious, and not having to do anything sunday...i think I actually felt cheery.
Nothing could cheer Amy up....
i think we may have had a yin-yang weekend....and saturday night was kinda like those two adjacent dots. Maybe.

***my film "lint" will be played on the Austin Music Network @ 11pm-11:30pm (sometime in that timeslot) on thursday night. Finally! So if you read this, and actually haven't seen it......AnD live in austin.....here is your chance!

i <3 Batman Movies

>new batmobile

i like it. I dont know why...its not anything like the burton one. I think its because it's more realistic for a vigilante. And because the movie is called "batman begins" im assuming this is supposed to be the first ever batmobile, so it lacks style. And has increased ruggedness. I hope the costume correlates with this theme.
i hear that new catwoman movie is going to blow ass...shame.

oh yes.....i must say, Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind is a perfect film. Its even better than Adaptation in most ways. It pisses me off how good a writer Charlie Kaufman is. Its fucking incredible. Jersey Girl is excellent too...
Both "touch" you in different ways. Perhaps im not ready to fully understand the way in which Jersey girl touches you, because im not a father, but i understand it enough...just having a father, to love it. Its the most original love-comedy i think hollywood has made in quite sometime. Eternal Sunshine....its just a mind trip, with a lot of real emotions, and real thoughts.....despite the plot centering around fantasy.......classic kaufman i guess.
i gurantee you these are the two best films out right now...prolly til Hellboy in a few days(?) i think....

dont juice on me

somone in my script writing class, told me my short film was too crude and that no one would want to watch it, and then went on to say "i think high school kids would even be offended by this." I wanted to tell him to fuck off so badly, and that his film was the most pointless fucking trash so far.....even though i kind of liked his. I mean...i remember high school. Everyone had weird sexual tension....weird for various reasons. especially those first couple of years. i dont know... I didn't say anything though...so i guess it doesn't matter. But still...its not like i had anyone kill their father and then anally rape him. I have a kid who can control time, saying impolite things to a girl that he is attracted to....because he says what he feels, and he doesn't know how to talk to girls, but with time control, he can be smooth....
i just thought this guy was a little niave. He probably buys into the austin philosophy, of making a conscious effort to be un-entertaining, and replacing it with played out types of hippie shit. blah...im bitter.
On the other hand...a girl in the class said it was "fun" and "crude can be good." My teacher/ta would not say anything about it.....everyone in the class was laughing at pretty much every part that was supposed to be funny......even that guy, so whatever.

i have something to say that matters....i hope.

i hope its over

this week was fucking crazy for me. With south by southwest volunteering, seeing shows, and working/training at the black eyed pea now, along with the 311 this past saturday and all the homework yesterday, things just haven't stopped. And now im fucking sick with one of the more terrible sinus infections ive ever had i think. I just wore myself out i guess, and smoked a shitload of nasty natural american spirit ciggarettes, which were free to sxsw people. So i think im gonna try to give up smoking, hopefully all together.....im just fucking tired of it, its stupid and I blame it for my illnesses, which im also tired of.
But alot of cool stuff happened over the break, despite not ever getting a true break (ive only had like 3 beers in the entire past week). I didn't see any movies but i got to see a shit load of music acts.
Wednesday me and amy saw a bunch of hip hop acts on RhymeSayers Label...i think they were all from minneapolis. The hi-lite to be was a fat albino MC, it was hilarious....but i dont remember his real name.
Next was CAKE and Little Richard. Cake....idunno, their set was dissappointing, but i love John McCrae so much because of his assholic attitude, its so funny to me. He hates his fans, and popularity, it always seems like....they played two new songs, which sounded really cool. Little Richard...idunno what to say except "shut up!"
Friday i went to a Punk showcase, which had NOFX headlining....this other band named the Dillinger Four, was interesting...they seemed to hate a lot of people, and one guy got naked and stuck a bottle in his ass, and he also claimed that every song had "thank you baby jesus" in the title. It was offensive, but fun. David Cross did a comeddy hour, inbetween shows, which was really funny....and then Nofx rocked....my roomate michael as well as this herpetonian mark got into the pit, which was really uncharacteristic of them.
Then saturday, i saw Handsome Boy Modeling School....which was cool, but not all that musical. Then some famous techno/electronic two man stuff.....i cant think of their name now.....and then we watched half of NERD's set, which was cool....but we were cranky....Liz Phair was in the crowd....as well as Domino of heiroglyphics.....
By sunday i was quite sick, but attended the sxsw softball game....to volunteer.....Michael got wasted on free beer...then me and amy and mike all took a free 12 pack of booze.......but im too fucking sick to drink.

this is prolly boring to everyone....oh well, i wrote it anyway.

hands down

it was the best 311 concert ive ever been to.
jammin', emotional, familial, rare, enlightening, entertaining.
wow.
way above the last 3 ive been to...
i think for my 10th or 11th one, i would like to go to new orleans for the 3-11 day celebration....the setlists are unbelievable, and the past one was a five hour long set. (Just imagine your favorite music being played live for 5 hours)

but anyways.
today was my first day at sxsw. the long hours are annoying, but its not like you are doing much. the people in "holding pool" are more often than not, boring....but they do serve decent food. and they also give away free packs of cigarrettes.....apparently one of the "anchors/reporters" from the daily show was there today....but, i did not see him.....nor really care to. It wasn't John Stewart or Steven Colber (sp?)

ok...so after i made that dvd....(that apparently all the people i know hate now)...for my parents they've been showing to all their friends and other regions of the family i rarely see.....but apparently the most requested re-play is the Dreamer's Dream (aka My Pet Monster Movie), which is totally fucked up.....but i guess it strikes a very simple/fun/fantasy chord....and alot of people seem to like it. And strangely lint is the most unliked....i blame that on the shitty ghost and pot smoking....
But for the other, I give credit to the my pet monster itself......
retro nostalgia is soooo hot, its burning me right now.

one organism in celebration.

busy-ness

im really busy.
i dont really have time to do this, but im procrastinating for 5 more minutes atleast....
so far:
dialogue exercise paper (check)
art history - mathews' critical evaulation research paper (check)
asians in US cinema study/test (check)
to do:
complete african american history, 15 page take-home test/report (fuck!)
go to SXSW "bag stuffing" (idunno)
go to work at BEP (meh)
go to 311 for the 9th time, in houston (goal)
begin SXSW volunteer work (aah)
shoot herpeton commercial (do it)
dont do anything moderately associated with "vacation" during spring break (no problem)

i cant picture myself sitting back and relaxing.....but i want to, its weird.

nothing interesting in my life is happening though....311 will be interesting, since along with all my katy friends, my sister and parents will be there...WHO AM I GOING TO RIDE WITH?
i cant show up with my rents! its sooo uncool
But my friends will prolly be drunk....
oh wait...not really....but still, its a moral dilemmaaaaoooh my god i have to study....

"lay-tah"

Thomas F. Mathews' quote

discussing the reverence of the Ass in early medievil art...

"And, most amazing, there are several representations of Christ with the head of an ass. A famous graffito of around the year 200 discovered on the Palatine in Rome shows a man worshipping a cruicified, ass-headed Christ, above a inscription, "Alexamenos worships his god."

I do not worship representations, nor ass-headed Christs...

trendy blogging

im doing the top 25 most played, instead though
this is not in the right order, but in alpha, based on band name....except for the first one...its the most played with 77 plays....

love song - 311
song_2 - blur
december - collective soul
i believe in a thing called love - the darkness
are you gonna be my girl - jet
foolish games - jewel
are you gonna go my way - lenny kravitz
closer - NIN
gone away - offspring
superman's dead - our lady peace
lump - presidents of the united states of america
smack my bitch up - prodigy
bulls on parade - Rage against the machine
liar - rollins band
everyday is a winding road - sheryl crow
wait till tomorrow - silverchair
freak - silverchair
bullet with butterfly wings - smashing pumpkins
six underground - sneaker pimps
black hole sun - sound garden
two princes - spin doctors
save yourself - stabbing westward
vasoline - stp
what i got - sublime
opossum kingdom - toadies


WOW.
90s hits....yeah
whats the deal with the "90s were so awesome" shows already popping up......that is shitty.

the passion of the joey

ok. so i saw the passion of the christ....on ASH WEDNESDAY, HELL YA! ASHES!
First off...i must say, everyone is going to have mild problems with this movie. On all different types of scales. Because i think most people have read or know of this story, and they already know how it goes in their heads...so its easy to get frustrated because its not exactly like you imagined it. Its also got technical flaws...blah(x3)....but the cinematography is the shit.
I think everyone whos ever really analyzed the story, will easily be able to pick it apart. I found myself doing this a lot. But i must say, the parts i did like, i really really thought were awesome.
I will spare you specifics.
Its worth watching...but it is only one mans telling.....but then again, the bible is sort of too...well...a bunch of men's tellings....but men nonetheless.
I dont care to watch it again....unless im seeing it with people who haven't seen it. I think it inspires a lot of post-movie talk....after about 10 minutes, to kind of "take it in" a little.
Couple more things....
-something i thought was really funny.....during the scene when Jesus is getting the shit flogged out of him....this guy next to me winces and says "jeesus!" as an expilitive...i almost laughed out loud.
-leaving the theater...it was so quiet....and everyone looked really ashamed. It was interesting...

overall, its pretty moving...
I got pretty choked up at approximately 5 moments....but enough about this....go see it....you should.
excuse me, i have to crucify my roomate Luis now....

Job

i got the job at black eyed pea. It is good that i have a job now. I am mildly stressed about learning all the ins and outs of the place....as well as the whole fucking menu and shorthand. But i think i am pleased......as long as they dont fire me after i tell them i need off the majority of spring break.
i start monday. Talking to people is a fear of mine....oh well...i guess ill get over it the forced way....Black eyed pea is so hott right now...

Katy was okay this past weekend. I listened and finally started to really like the new incubus album. Now i think it is fucking awesome, and like it 3x more than morning view, which i never actually purchased....
but i ate chinese food...which was the big goal of the weekend. It was nice. We played a lot of pool saturday night. A lot.
My parents have huge tv now...with some HD channels.....its revolutionary. I also made a huge 60 minute compilation of short films, and burned them to dvd.

I will watch The Passion Of The Christ sometime this week....if anyone wants to go with....maybe tomorrow night.

once again...i will give up mexican food for lent....or lint....or whatever...fuck you.

believe me when i say

I have a 2nd interview with the Black Eyed Pea tomorrows. This could possibly be the end of my poverty, but im not getting my hopes up too high. But i do have hope.
the first interview was one of the weirdest ive ever had.
-she stared at me blankly a few times, and i laughed at her strange expression and looked away
-i told her i drink illegally and that i have smoked pot
-she tried to blow my confidence by telling me Im too reserved for a security postion at the erwin center
-i told her i have been offered sex and money from people at the erwin center to get backstage

so it was weird.
but i go back tomorrow.....and then on to katy....unless they want me to start immediately, which would give quite a blow to my plans.

I was reading soemthing in the paper that kinda got me thinking. Well...two things really. About conservative activist groups...One group apparently has started scholarships for white people only. And another group had a rally for "straigh pride."
...i dont know if i agree with a real need for these type of things...they're just trying to make a statement.....
the "straight pride day" thing...is just straight up silly to me, however.....the article dealing with white scholarships....kinda makes a real point.....about how its almost like, shameful to be a white person.....in a way.
I dont usually have this problem....my family is predominately from the later group of immigrants that came to america....so at some point, my ancestors were hated....prolly for being dirty pollocks.....and i also have the scottish thing......so im proud of my heritage (somewhat) because my family wasn't around during some of that hardcore racism from the 18th and 19th century, against mostly AA's.
i dont know really....
its interesting to think about, none the less....

i got an honorable mention, for a short film....finally......and inch of recognition.

do me in the morning

if you had to make a choice, would you rather listen to Bell Biv Devoe's "that girl is poison" or "do me!" in a party-like setting.?

I have love nascar racing. I'm sorry. I think its weird too.
something about going in circles really fast against other people just really taps my soul. Ben Affleck apparently loves it too, so i am cool, right? Apparently "Nascar Dads" is a new political demographic....not unlike "soccer Moms" i guess. President Bush was there to do some wooing, and work in a plug about his days in the...whatever military sect he was in. I haven't been to katy in a while. Nearly two months is a while for me, compared to fucking last semester. My parents seem to really miss me, im sure they really do...i am a really cool son. So cool in fact, i think my mom is buying me a 311 ticket for the houston show....because apparently my whole family is going....I will have to keep an eye on my sister in the pit.....she is bad.
It snowed the other day....snow has a weird effect on Jenny. It makes her happier than anything ever....im very sure nothing could make her happier than when it snows in texas.....except for maybe having sex with brad pitt in Thelma and Louise. But who doesn;t want that right?
blah

excuse me, i must apply for another job.



what if you commited a murder, and were on the run, and then over half the population of earth suddenly disappeared?
this is my tagline for my short film, i think

feeling red

anyone believe god tests them?
i consider most of my strife in life to be testing, rather than punishment, from God. I dont know what punishment would come from....maybe rejecting your fellowship with god, as a christian....or more generally forgetting about god. Or maybe god doesn't punish.....
punish is just a word....so is testing.....its all relative anyway. Ill think what i think.
ANYWAYS



But im trying to not be bitter about my situation, but its leading to mild unhappiness....so i suppose im reevaluating what really makes me truly happy. Its hard, when all i seem to need/want is money. So im re-focusing. excuse me.


hopefully my soul is not as broke as my bankaccount.

goal: job/internship/make commercial/win contest/write short/make short/love

do i hate religion?

i was reading all this stuff about christian activists, acting out against that new incubus video where they put jesus's face on a nazi uniformed body. And i was reading all the anti-christian sentiment amongst incubus fans. It all reminded me of myself three years ago. I dont know why. Just the cheap rhetoric......
i act like ive changed alot or something....i probably haven't. There are bigger things to think about. But im really missing church recently....I haven't been since the summer, and i guess im starved for someone to teach me some bible doctrine.
the 90s compilation is now up to 260 or so. With about 15 songs, waiting to be able to download.....and then im considering whether or not to put Nirvana or Creed on it. I'm sure those are the two bands I really don't like, from the 90s. Creed still exists sadly.

So the new Incubus album came out. I hate being an incubus fan, almost as much as i hate being an offspring fan. Maybe more at the present moment. The album is more creative than their last. The song structure is less trite, and they seem to just jam out at odd moments, which makes for an interesting listen. Maybe not repeated listenings. This song "priceless" reminds me of one of those crazier Dismemberment Plan songs. Which is good to hear. The funk seems to be back, along with this new bassist, but because brandon boyd's vocal dont really take advantage, its not as fun as it is on their earlier couple of albums... They are also back to hating TV or just hating stuff in general, which was missing for the most part on the previous album. So good lyrics, mostly good songs....and the album really isn't commercial sounding.....although it will become so, because incubus can do that by now.
The song "In my room" really gets me....a lot....almost as much as the ending to thelma and louise.

311 is coming 3/14

I want you bad, i want you bad....i understand why they say "high school never ends"

nosebleed that wont stop

create your own visited states map

ive actually lived in most these states....well, more than half. My family doesn't like to take trips to foreign places. Family vacations have always been more about relaxation, than the added stress of going to unknown lands. take me ta jamaica.

i haven't done it in nearly a year. 10 months i estimate. I was very nervous. I went to the place of business where i knew she would be. She had many tools, that I could see in plain view, and a mix station playing in the background. She wore a black robe with her black hair neatly tied back. Her english was weak, but her spanish was strong. She called my name. I went in. I took a seat. She asked me how i would like it. I said "take it all." I could see she liked me, and wanted to take it all, and take me all in.
She pulled her toys from her shelf and began the process.
It had been a long time, but the job she began was not short. It was a glorious feeling, like being born again. Every second, i could feel weight being lifted off my soul and body.
Finally she finished. Our time was short together, but well worth it.
I paid her waht seemed a small sum for the great service she provided, so i tact on a substantial tip despite being broke.
then i left supercuts.....its cold outside.

Bank Affairs

i wonder how long i can go on being a sack of shit.
what do you think?
i never thought it would come to this, but im fucking shitty. If i make fun of your for being shitty, im sorry.....its just me.

But anyways...this weekend was interesting to say the least.
Paul beat his record of 30 jello shots, by taking 40 at katherines party.
I got Freddy Vs. Jason on dvd, along with Waking Life...which was only 6 dollars at best buy. My knees got weak when i saw that at first....but then i was like...what? this is a good movie.......maybe its not. Or IM NOT!
Me and Paul tried to play "take a shot anytime someone dies" during Freddy Vs. Jason....and determined we are not that hardcore.....and thank god for that.

I also just finished a little scene about a woman that works at a bank fucking a theif. So in other words, instead of cleaning out the bank....she cleaned out his cock. If you catch my drift!

I hope someone that i dont know gives me some hard verbal repromanding on how much i suck, this week....i think its going to happen....im expecting a call from my dad for some reason.

i should shave, ill feel better.

woah, its random

if things would have been different in some way....i think i would have been a big marilyn manson fan....
maybe i could become one now....i love how outrageous and moderately stupid it is. And to think, people used it to advocate their suicides.
but anyways.
all my classes are terribly hard, i suppose because this is the first semester in which i am taking all upper division classes. I better fucking learn something.
usually i take a lot of classes that all aline in some ways....this semester doesn't seem that way.....its like africans americans here, asians here, medievil art here, and script writing here........
should i write a script about africans and asians coming together and traveling back in time to attack western european artisans? yes.

arithmetically is a stupid word. Arithmetic itself is fine.....but fuck, just say mathematically.

The TA for my asian class, i was sitting there looking at this chick thinking, " that dude is totally gay"......then i came to find out she is a lesbian instead. I thought that odd.....because as a man, she acts feminine....but as a woman she seems manly.......maybe she isn't a lesbian, but enjoys hardcore dike style. I dont know. Nevermind.


and just remember folks, if you cant see the forest through the trees, then you cant smell your own shit on your knees!
yeah!

losers bond to eachother

you ever have a not-so-dreamy dream, and it stays with you for a few hours after you wake up. And it just happens to coincide with the one thought that plagues your mind every day. So it makes it like double the work to think about.
and it makes you....well, me want to change eveything.
but i wont, because im comfortable/shitty.

Tomorrow school starts. This break has felt really long. I started drinking really early, and continued to the whole time basically.....but now i have an excuse not to, i get to go to class!
im taking 3 fairly strange courses, one being Intro to Indian Film...ya its gonna be weird, um...intro to early medevil art....with a very famous instructor Glenn Peers, from canada, who has a playmate wife. And also history of african americans since 1860.....idunno.......did i tell everyone about how all my classes got dropped and i just signed up a couple of days ago?
ya....i am shit.

but im working on a 90s hit compilation and have over 100 songs......if you have any suggestions.....please leave them in the comments area below. thank you.

i need a job, and a summer internship right about now.

4 years is quite awhile

wow....

but anyway...
hows everyone doing? im doing well. Paul and Tink moved to austin, combined with the amount of katy people already here...i believe there has been a change in the winds....Austin may win this war.
ok.
top 5 movies of 2003

peter pan
kill bill vol1
pirates of the carribean
the hulk
Once Upon a Time in Mexico.

lots of popcorn movies.....indie was so out this year.
not that i watch that many indie movies anyway, but whatev.
Assessments:
2 pirate movies...
2 johnny depp movies
2 related to disney world (one very vaguely though)
2 from the "A band apart" production team/ directors

i own all the ones that have come out so far...
im such a good consumer....

notable mentions : Freddy Vs. Jason, Matrix Revolutions, X2, 28 days later....not quite enough to make a top ten....and i refuse to put the Return of the King on there....id rather put Terminator 3.

and thats my assholic opinion on this fantabulous year in film/HD

im prolly forgetting something though.