believe me when i say

I have a 2nd interview with the Black Eyed Pea tomorrows. This could possibly be the end of my poverty, but im not getting my hopes up too high. But i do have hope.
the first interview was one of the weirdest ive ever had.
-she stared at me blankly a few times, and i laughed at her strange expression and looked away
-i told her i drink illegally and that i have smoked pot
-she tried to blow my confidence by telling me Im too reserved for a security postion at the erwin center
-i told her i have been offered sex and money from people at the erwin center to get backstage

so it was weird.
but i go back tomorrow.....and then on to katy....unless they want me to start immediately, which would give quite a blow to my plans.

I was reading soemthing in the paper that kinda got me thinking. Well...two things really. About conservative activist groups...One group apparently has started scholarships for white people only. And another group had a rally for "straigh pride."
...i dont know if i agree with a real need for these type of things...they're just trying to make a statement.....
the "straight pride day" thing...is just straight up silly to me, however.....the article dealing with white scholarships....kinda makes a real point.....about how its almost like, shameful to be a white person.....in a way.
I dont usually have this problem....my family is predominately from the later group of immigrants that came to america....so at some point, my ancestors were hated....prolly for being dirty pollocks.....and i also have the scottish thing......so im proud of my heritage (somewhat) because my family wasn't around during some of that hardcore racism from the 18th and 19th century, against mostly AA's.
i dont know really....
its interesting to think about, none the less....

i got an honorable mention, for a short film....finally......and inch of recognition.