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i think im growing up, i make one of the most irresponisible moves ive ever made. sadly...drinking too much and missing work is something worth noting, if im making a list...due to my life being about as interesting as a toothpick.
Missing work. I never do that. i never miss anything that ive given a commitment to.
perhaps my commitment to alcohol is much stronger than ive assumed, and my commitment to waiting tables is....vice versa.
id be lying if i said that 40% of my family doesn't suffer from some degree of alcoholism.
i hope i get fired. i hope that i would search for a more meaningful job that i could commit to while still keeping my commitment to school. Maybe i could commit to aligning my life up for post-graduation...like so many already have. Those people with those degrees that get you somewhere....
This fool that chose this path nearly 4 years ago, doesn't feel so optimistic. But i will hold on to that sharp sliver of hope...despite how much my brain tells me to let go.
My parents are becoming those parents again. The ones that want to know my next move. The ones that bring up the future rather than the past. Ive had these before. There return is welcome. I enjoy the pressure.
My Dad said this past weekend...."everything will just work out for you. its weird how it just happens"
I dont know if i would purchase that statement, even if it were 50 percent off. But perhaps he is right. i am a whitestraightmale...all roadways should be pretty clear.
One day my dad will die. And i will have to deal with that.

...or maybe i could commit some time to God, and less to trying to break down God and reality into human-sized edible pieces.
or maybe i could commit to getting some sleep.


*if you want to watch a movie that makes you care about the characters. and then kills them off. And then turns the tables and feels like it is watching you......go see Shawn Of the Dead....one of the best small depression enducing, ridiculous comedies ive ever seen. think like...If The Green Mile had Ernest in it.

pizza hut commercial

i have the love...the love for staying up past my bedtime contemplating stylish camera shots. Im taking a break, to refresh my brain a bit before continuting til 4:30, which...this will be the 3rd night anniversary for that one.
Ofcourse, its been for different reasons each evening.
Last night i wrote a diatribe on my generation...it turned out to be atleast 2 pages not double spaced....just on how much my generation sucks at being a cool generation. And how distraction is our main shortcumming. I think towards the end somewhere I was defining where I fall into this pile, and i believe i said "the internet = weed." I thought that was great, and despite the whole thing being unmindful of the thousands or even just a few of the many layers that must be examined when judging something so large as "generation shit" (as i like to call it), atleast i could walk away with that idea. The internet is in fact stupid. ha.
::sigh::

Anybody else love to film stuff as much as me? Even if I never get to work in the motion picture industry, im getting a kick out of it now, and no matter how jaded i become about my filthy life...ill always have some cool little projects to show people.

I think I need to start calling people pedantic more.

blogger = life

invitation

seeing the light
Originally uploaded by Ginchy311.

i have seen the light.
does anyone want to go watch Jim Trainor, the avant garde animation guy's work on friday? i have only seen "the bats"
and that was awesome.
i need someone really really deep and intellectual, but with a great sense of humor. And doesn't get depressed while laughing.

come over here and do me man

im hungry....for blood.

Xsited

im really really excited to see "I <3 Huckabees"
just thought i would let everyone know.

looks like another one of those movies i should have made, but dont yet know how to express myself through stories....plus that guy that reminds me of myself is in it....and is cool.

i shaved off my sideburns, because i want to see skycaptain and the world of tomorrow.
ive revamped my "dream journal" because Rabiger told me to. Raqbiger is cool.

i think ive come to a point in my life where i want to spend time with myself, and that offends people.

no one is reading this blog anymore.....cause im not using AIM/ their profiles, any longer.
iChat forev.

food net/reciprocity

apparently ive made it to national cable television....im on the food network...my most despised network. A network dedicated to food. ew. they prolly hate me too though...
there is a shot of me at the Alamo drafthouse.....eating....i think
i dont remember when this was...and it may not really be me....but my aunt swears it is.
i hope i see it, and it is the time i saw spiderman2 and got completely wasted, and broke a glass in the last 5 minutes and bolted out the door...and then that one "guy" told me he thought it sucked...and then he dissappeared into thin air, and that asian chick was confused and walked away.
FUCK! FUCKFUCKFUCK!

oh well....i bought a really really sad Beck album...that latest one that came out like nearly 2 years ago. Ive heard it before...i guess i was just in a sad mood and felt like facilitating it.

Even if you hate movies imparticular, but like any sort of creative stuff, i suggest reading this book called "directing" by M. Rabiger

If you like Clerks....go out and pick up clerksX. best dvd package ever. i will get it myself soon. the Jersey girl dvd is also pretty cool.

Napoleon Dynamite....what can i say. i can say this....you fuckers(producers) stole my fucking word. "Delicious" is no longer fresh.....you assholes. oh and this....
"vague plot, but still very original/funny."

if you have sex with 10 people at the same time? can that be love?

id catch you all a delicious bass....in order to get that feeling back that i had not so long ago.

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

ok...weird

weirdness lurks in my life. but it has put its funny fucking face (pardon the alliteration...not!) in my bizness.
so if you want to see how small the news can make death seem ive got the link for my dead cousin.
i guess it really is that small (similar to my dick), if not smaller in the grand view. its not like it even bothered me that much, except the open casket part....when the corpse is missing both arms and is so bruised and swolen that its nearly unrecognizable....due to an emotionally drained mother making bad decisions. a corpse is a corpse.....i think i want a closed casket.....so it leaves a little mystery. so you are like "what do you think he is doing in there?" the answer will be "laughing at your stupid fucking face and enjoying myself thoroughly."
oh well.

If Ggod gives me the chance, i will make something better than garden state, and more quotable...zach braff, the new jew-tom hanks?
my two favorite entertainers in the whole nation....K. Smith and 311, are both heading out to do that creative thing they do this fall. I still cant believe Smith is making clerks two (the passion of the clerks). and i still cant believe 311 is so good.

everyones getting plans, but i refuse/reality comes quick like a knife in the back, while your standing in front of a mirror.
did i just use links....more weird.