so we think were important
and we think that we make sense, and we think there is somehting better on the other side of this fence.
There is a huge difference in a career and a job. anyone can get a job. Some folks love their jobs...obviously im not in that category, and hope never to be. I think i will be perfectly content to hate 9 to 5 jobs the rest of my life. As i learned from the offspring at an early age which has remained true since i've thought about it..."its cool to hate" things that deserved to be hated atleast secretly. I could go on here, but will leave it at that....jobs deserve to be hated and i think God would agree. But a career....thats a passion...with goals, and success and failure. Things we all want and sort of thrive off of. I can fail and succeed at my job...but honestly....i wont remember the next day if someone at black eyed pea fills out a positive comment card or actually tells me thank you when i give them their sack of various fried foods. Careers are just a lot more interesting....because you care, and ultimate pleasure is at stake.
You could show me any number of scientific thing that tried to break down what it is that makes us want a career/goals/successes/failures, and i would not buy into you.I just wouldn't care. It's a phenomena to me. Something not driven by money or sex or anything....just a feeling you get.....aah....accomplishment.
Sitting in a room with a hundred people laughing at something you wrote or put together or allowed someone else to do is probably as good as i will ever feel without going into spiritual things. Granted, its pretty self centered....but it is mine, and it always is, even if i felt major success through the avenue of finding a way to house every person in austin and find the homeless jobs in australia taking a piss every 3 hours for a living....youre doing it for you, because helping others makes you feel good.
We are selfish beings, and to me...its impossible not to be all the way, because I cant really see into your consciousness. I can relate to it, but ultimately to me, its just me.
Its all how you look at it. To be honest, a huge goal of mine, for some reason, that will probably never happen, would be to give everyone i know a chance to do what they love/ employ them, and we would all just live well and have success/failure and fun for the rest of our days. theres a million and a half in one chance this could ever happen....but that would probably be the biggest accomplishment of my lifetime. Granted...most of you wouldn't really want to work for me....but hey....if i owned owned a magazine, a production company, or a recording studio....would you? Atleast for a little bit. maybe not.
This is ultimately fucking selfish as hell.
But i just really like the people i know....
So careers are pretty much totally better than jobs.
Im now the post-production supervisor for RIL pictures' 30 minute short "NecRomancer"
this is an unpaid position...but not being paid is so hott right now.
