Its a melancholy morn...

and im awake, and feeling rather low.....for no reason. I hate these sudden bursts of declined mood. Maybe it was incorporating fruit (grapes) into my diet again. I hadn't eaten fruit in what seems like a month. Maybe the depredations created by not eating fruit was eliciting a positive effect on mood. Although it might not be.....but maybe i wont eat fruit anymore. I'll stick to vegetables....this is assuming its a chemical thing. Which...its prolly not. More than likely, Its the anxiety of change (Finishing School and Moving back to Katy).
Soon, I'll be back in Katy....with a mundane job, and nothing to do but sit around and stare at the walls, and watch people die. Atleast their is kerosene around.....ill find something to do. Do i sound punk?

Replace kerosene with video-camera and you will have my true intentions....


I had a good idea for a movie. A man begins his own mormon-esque/perfectionist religion....going through several tribulations to increase he and his newly founded commune's bonhomie. He gets married, and his wife....and she is just as dedicated to gaudy-religion as he. They even claim to "hear," aurally, God. But then, the bitch dies.....and then the guy spends endless nights disturbing nights trying to resurrect his wife. He never accomplishes it, and you pity the fucker for going too far with religion. Then he goes blind somehow, and he goes to live with his mother who abuses him, as he digresses to a childs mentality. The end would be him dying on a floor in a fetal position. It would be a black comedy. Not "black" like black people....black...like....beyond "dark" comedy. Or maybe "black" like black people...but its hard to make black people look really really feeble....



maybe im wrong...(?)
...The point would be to downplay religion, and uplift independent study of religion, making it a personal thing, instead of social dung......maybe its stupid.


i cant find anything to make me laugh tonight....
not even the Handsome Boy Modeling Boy song "Modeling Sucks" does the trick.......that usually gets me every time......
Spiderman's out this weekend...kewl