10.06.2005

sponge worthy



I'm 22 years old, and all i know how to do well is drink. It's one of the few things i feel completely comfortable within normal conversation with beings outside myself and my small group of friends. It's pretty sad. I can't talk about music, nor movies, nor books, nor televsision, nor women, nor food nearly as well as I can speak about booze.
I've been bored far too much, and booze has filled the void so incredibly well. Now that my time in institutions(college) and prisons (junior high) is over, I don't have the same problems with boredom. Theres plenty of things to do, and a lot of things i want to do....more than drink. And slowly these ideas are coming to fruitation in my day to day habbits of living.
I'm learning a lot despite not being in school. I suppose this is what they call "experience," which is apparently just learning without the institution.
Makes me think I could have started this earlier. 22 sounds old to me still. I think I could have started "experiencing" things way before 22. I think I could have started working on things (media things) when I was like 15. Sadly there is not a huge difference between my personality with the 7 years age difference. I "know" more...and I've definitely "lived" more. But wow...what a lack of "experience."
But despite this feeling like I've gotten a late start, I wouldn't trade it for all the booze knowledge.
'cause i like that shit.

But much like masturbation addiction, alcoholism subsides with age....hopefully

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