beer and deep bays of shit

so ive been a little depressed i think....i wish i didn't know why, but i do....which is kinda worse in 'my situation' (how kerry-esque...jk kerry) because id rather just continue to be apathetic. So I will, because that is what i want, and will continue to do so until i start sobbing unontrolably....which is gay and not worth the mental taxing....although it may be beneficial in getting rid of all the excess water in my overly hydrated body....
dont stop reading yet....i know youre tempted
Gosh darn it was a lazy weekend....my parents ventured out for a spur of the moment visit to the hill country b/c of the recent flooding...the land out there suddenly looks (if not...feels) greener and the water doesn't trickle as normal, it pours....which is refreshing...
I think i should have gone with them instead of staying in katy w/ no family home...some of the events of my weekend were very disheartening i guess...even the happy drinking alcohol moments seemed tainted. This compounded my slight 'off-ness' into a full scale, shitty feeling that seems to be souring my mood like the sour gum balls that used to be so popular during my youth baseball career...

The movie Road to Perdition is excellent and is a great revival for gangster films...very very good....go watch. Even you youths......but if your feeling a bit more youthful than normal...i would recommend lilo and stitch....very very good as well....

Now i gotta go....my parents are home....and my mom is one of those hardcore clean freaks (to the highest bracket of extreme)
its really fucking annoying....and i offered her 100 dollars every two weeks to not help with her weekly, sunday afternoon, nit-picky cleanings ....but she turned me down...

i must extirpate this emotional bullshit......or ignore it.....both will suffice.....:backwards sigh:

Conclusions:
-People are not people in this city, unless they have cars.....you must be mobile to be able to live....and that sux....
-Some people need to find out what being responsible means, and start being it.....you cant be a child forever....so stop pretending so much....

do homosexuals fist their asses when they masturbate?

I dont....