CradleOfFilth=SellOuts

the woman who smokes marlboro red 100s just walked in and im reminded of yesterday. Yesterday, i found out Darens grandmother died. Its very unsettling, being able to hear the distraught in his voice, and grief in his eyes. Her death seems to have brought out some bitterness, but maybe its a healthy bitterness....only for the fact that its been directed at his family in one way or another and he is letting loose some of the pinned up anger.
She died of emphesema....or atleast i was under the impression that was the main thing.....and if youve ever seen anyone dying of emphasema, you never want to touch a cigarrette again....until your drinking atleast.
Its weird to me seeing my best friend shredded to shit inside....This is like, his first experience as an adult (and not a small non-understanding child) with a death in the family. I've had like 8 or 9 deaths in my family...5 i can remember......but i was born with an abnormal amount of great/grandparents. Sadly, the death thats bothered me the most was probably my dog Rebel. He spent 14 years of my life with me, and was a very good friend through alot of troubling childhood stuff. I hated moving to a different town nearly every year of my life...it wasn't easy for me. Oh well......ill be attending darens grandma's funeral on friday, i think. Shes kickin it now, knowing all the knowable and shit....with god. So im jealous.

I put up a pool table in my garage...it is cool, but hot.
The Hulk is fucking amazing....Ang Lee took a comic character and turned it into a highly stylized art film about inner demons. And i love that take on the character, because along with the editing and colors, it has the same feel of the comic. I was happy it wasn't an all-out summer popcorn movie.....A lot of people i know, that love movies and comics didn't like this movie, and i just dont understand it, so fuck them.
The Hulk character is awesome and also fucking hilarious, to me....esp when he does wrestling stuff.
The new 311 single, "creatures (for awhile)" is great...and this album is going to be better than anything theyve done before, i believe.

i want to eat ranch dressing....only