i go crazy just like you i do

well...
i haven't posted in a stillborns lifetime which may be nothing, but whatever im gross...
so...
ill post now...
As you can tell by the previsou post...ive been working a shitload at my fathers work.
Thinking about life, existence...as always. Its become mroe puzzling than ever, but i think my faith in god has increased immensely....eveything sorta became real (and in a way not real)....
my main question now is why does anything exist?
what purpose does anything have?
i think dying will answer so many questions to all these crappy thoughts that can plague your life....it will be like opening an infinite amount of eyes to everything ever...
which is a bad explanation

But anyways...im not feeling so depressed about anymore, and im not obsessiing...so im happy now

So much good music has flooded into the world recently...i haven't even had time get to know it all...

as soon as the deftones album came out, it sudddenly was eclipsed by the monster that is the new metallica cd.
St Anger.....is good. If you like metal that is. Its such a strange album. Its seems to be purposely poorly mixed/produced....sorta minmalist, if you will.
It sounds very raw, and i think thats what metal needs.
This idea of making something sound like crap to make it more real is cool, and makes me not really wanna go back and listen to deftones...
however....after the new 311 eclipses this St Anger thing, i will surely return to it.

I think ill try to include detailed reviews in some sort of summer-wrap up post, once i get back into the school thing.

Short films seem to be progressing well, even with the lack of time.
I feel it is my purpose....to drag people out of their human realities and search for something else in this existence. Even if it entails making a film about a my pet monster killing childhood memories........

-j